Listen to your babies

There has been a lot of drama going n lately. There's been some stuff with Women's League and at the time I was like this is crazy! Then I found out about the possibility of my job moving to another town and I was all bummed out about it. Then last night I read this...

There seems to be a lot of confusion about what's going on so I'm just going to tell y'all. We are in desperate need once again MORE THAN EVER for your prayers. It seems like we are always going through a struggle with our children but we always come through stronger than ever. I pray for Landon's healing and strength! I pray for the strength that we need to stay strong for him. Yesterday he was a normal little boy playing baseball in the yard, last night around 10:30 he started complaining that his tummy hurt (like usual), we gave him his daily medicine and he went to the bathroom then went to bed saying his tummy felt better (again this is a normal thing for us). He woke up about an hour later throwing up and screaming in pain trying to use the bathroom again, this was a little unusual. We tried giving him a little extra medicine to help him thinking there was still more for him to get rid of. He gripped the toilet with his hands and feet screaming, crying, and pouring sweat. Jeremey Tillman and I decided it was time to take him to the emergency room bc we couldn't get relief for him and the vomiting was a little concerning. We get to the ER thinking he just has a blockage (we have had this problem before, they give him meds to clean him out and the problem is solved) over about 8 hours he completely lost his color, was extremely lethargic, lips were blue, dehydrated, and couldn't even fight the nurses while they stuck him 14 times trying to get blood. They took him for a barium enema (test to try to see where the obstruction was where they inject dye and see where it's getting stuck, during the test the doctor came to the waiting room and told me that the second set of blood work they had done came back and it was significantly worse in just those few hours meaning he needed surgery and would be taken for surgery this afternoon. Just a few minutes later the manager comes to get me out of the waiting room to take me into private so the people doing the study could come talk to me. They informed me that Landon's heart had stopped. They had intubate him and we're doing chest compressions to try to revive him. It took them 18 minutes to get him back. They wheeled him by us in the hallway and couldn't stop bc they had to take him straight into surgery. They had to remove a huge part of his colon bc it had died. Due to this his kidneys and liver took a hit too and they are having to watch them. He has a colostomy bag to allow his intestines to heal, they are having to watch his lungs and heart due to the cardiac arrest and compressions, and they are having to watch for brain damage due to lack of oxygen. Please, PLEASE listen to ur babies no matter how old when they tell u something is wrong with them and figure out what it is. One day we are normal and having tummy aches due to what we thought was the normal constipation, the next my baby is in icy fighting for his life! Please listen to your kids and pay attention to signs! And PLEASE KEEP OUR LITTLE MAN AND OUR FAMILY IN YOUR PRAYERS!!

Now all the things that are going on or going wrong in my life seem so very miniscule. I cannot imagine what this family is going through. And I just heard that there isn't any brain activity showing for Landon.

My heart is breaking...

Eleven years ago

I found this old entry I wrote when Janie was about 9 months old... Over eleven years ago!!!

10.12.2004 @ 10:57 am

everyday



janie is growing more and more curious every day. she can even stand up by herself now! well, maybe that isn't exactly correct... i have to stand her up, but she can stand there once someone else stands her up. understand?

she is also getting closer and closer to standing on her own literally. she will pull up to her knees. or she will put her hands down in front of her and straighten out her legs so that she is bent in an upside down "v". i keep worrying that she is going to topple over head first, but as far as i know, that has yet to happen.

she is getting more and more beautiful everyday.

Apparently I had an aversion to using any capital letters when I was blogging back then.  It is so very strange to look back at entries from my old blog. It goes from 2004 to this year. Thorough the births of 2 children and two marriages. Through 2 c-sections (one very uneventful and another almost too eventful). Through 3 different jobs and a hundred different friends.

There are so many things that are different, but yet so many things are the same... It doesn't make me sad to read through my old entries, but it does make me feel as though I have grown. Grown as a teacher, as a wife and especially as a mother. It has a been an amazing journey so far and I can't wait to see where it goes next!!

Yuck

Si just puked all over me.

Twice.

And I had just finished giving him a bath no more than 15 minutes earlier. 

Time for bath #2!!

I'm not sure if he's really sick. He seems to feel great. Same smiling face and silly demeanor as always. 

The worst smell in the world has to be vomit...

YUCK!

Way too fast

I was laying on the bed next to Si as he was sleeping. Today we took him to the doctor for his 6 month check up and for his shots. He's been a little fussy this afternoon but that's to be expected.

I looked over at Jason and asked him, 

"Would you think I was crazy if I told you I wanted to have another baby?"

"No. I love kids. You know that Leigh," was his response. 

Maybe it's the latent pregnancy hormones or the antidepressant that's talking. I don't quite know.

But I do know this...

He is growing up way too fast...

Forward

Si turned six months old on monday! he has gotten so big... i honestly don't know how much he weighs but we will find out for sure next week when we take him to the doctor for his six-month checkup (which includes shots...)

he just started being able to sit up on his own! he's still a bit wobbly but he can stay up for extended periods of time without support. my sister says it will be no time before he's crawling...

it's been a busy past few weeks. janie's skating birthday party (which turned out fine even though i wanted to punch the owner of the rink in the throat to begin with) and the the womanless beauty pageant at the high school that i took pictures at (and then had to make them private because of the thousands of views they were getting on flickr... it was kinda freaking me out...) and the jwl mardi gras ball in town last weekend (again, more pictures).

i've got two weddings coming up that i'm going to photograph. they're small weddings (my favorite kind) so they won't stress me out too bad...

it's only wednesday and I am definitely looking forward to the weekend. actually, i'm looking forward to 3:05. thankfully that's only about 20 minutes away ;)

Sick

Si is sick :( he has a horrible stuffy nose and cough. he slept most of the day yesterday and it took much longer than normal for him to take a bottle because he can't breathe through his nose very easily...

so today instead of going to daycare, Jason took him to Mrs Suzanne.

and tomorrow he has a doctor's appointment for this 4 month shots...

poor baby...