sick sick sick

I've been sick for six days now. I went to the doctor on day 3. It's 3:45 in the morning and I just stopped crying because the pain medication finally helped the pain in my face to subside a bit.

This sinus infection has caused almost every part of my body to hurt. Earlier I was shaking all over because I was so cold. My teeth hurt so bad I wish I could pull them out with a pair of pliers. This is becoming ridiculous. I should be feeling better, not worse.

I'm sure Jason thinks I am being a baby about all this...

I wish I had a cigarette...

alone

Sometimes I feel so absolutely alone. When Janie is gone with Chris, and Jason and I aren't seeing eye-to-eye it feels like there is no one else in the whole world that cares.

Alone.

Hopeless.

Empty.