My person

I completely stole this from my cousin Joanna...

Lifelong commitment is not what everyone thinks it is. It's not waking up early every morning to make breakfast and eat together. It's not cuddling in bed together until both of you peacefully fall asleep. It's not a clean home and a homemade meal every day. 

It's someone who steals all the covers and snores. It's sometimes slammed doors, and a few harsh words, disagreeing, and the silent treatment until your hearts heal. Then...forgiveness! 

It's coming home to the same person every day that you know loves and cares about you, in spite of and because of who you are. It's laughing about the one time you accidentally did something stupid. It's about dirty laundry and unmade beds without finger pointing. It's about helping each other with the hard work of life! It's about swallowing the nagging words instead of saying them out loud. 

It's about eating the cheapest and easiest meal you can make and sitting down together at 10 p.m. to eat because you both had a crazy day. It's when you have an emotional breakdown, and your love lays with you and holds you and tells you everything is going to be okay, and you believe them. It's when "Netflix and chill" literally means you watch Netflix and hang out. It's about still loving someone even though sometimes they make you absolutely insane.

Living with the person you love is not perfect, and sometimes it's hard, but it's amazing and comforting and one of the best things you'll ever experience. 

Relationships

Great relationships just don't happen.. They are the result of a consistent investment of time spent, thoughtfulness, forgiveness, patience, affection , a mutual respect for each other, and rock solid commitment. Don't take your person for granted, show them you love them every chance you get & make sure they never wonder where you stand in your relationship. When you can both actually say that your person is your best friend then you know you have an amazing strong relationship.

To the depths of me

Because to the depths of me, I long to love one person,
With all my heart, my soul, my mind, my body...
Because I need a forever friend to trust with the intimacies of me,
Who won't hold them against me,
Who loves me when I'm unlikable,
Who sees the small child in me,
and Who looks for the divine potential of me...

Because I need to cuddle in the warmth of the night
With someone who thanks God for me,
With someone I feel blessed to hold...

Because marriage means opportunity To grow in love in friendship...

Because marriage is a discipline
To be added to a list of achievements...

Because marriages do not fail, people fail
When they enter into marriage Expecting another to make them whole...

Because, knowing this,
I promise myself to take full responsibility For my spiritual, mental and physical wholeness
I create me,
I take half of the responsibility for my marriage
Together we create our marriage...

Because with this understanding
The possibilities are limitless.

(Mari Nichols-Haining)

Fridays

It is finally Friday.

I remember a few years ago when I longed for every Friday. Even though somehow every Friday became the most stressful day at work. Something always seemed to fall apart, or some task would fall on my shoulders out of nowhere and be due by the end of the day. 

I longed for those two days of the week away from my job. Away from the responsibility of dealing with other people and their problems and issues that cause them to be so horrid to be around. 

Now I look forward to Fridays for a completely different reason. 

I am in love :)

I am finally in love with my life :) 

I am in love with my children :) 

I am in love with my husband :)

And with myself.

Si’s laugh and beautiful cherub face make my heart full like I have never felt before. Janie is growing into the sweetest soul I have ever known. And Jason makes me laugh and absolutely enjoy life.

I actually thought about taking off a day from work just to stay home with Janie and Si. Crazy, huh? I have less than 2 months and I will be able to be home with them every day, all day long for the summer. I honestly shouldn’t waste any days off from work (since I only have a few left) just to take off for the heck of it. I have so much to get done at school before graduation in May… The Memory Night video, programs for Awards Night, Memory Night and Graduation, and the MTA (Microsoft Technology Associate) Certiport testing for my students. 

I have ten students from last term that are planning to take the 98-366 MTA Networking Fundamentals Exam at the end of this month… I have less this term that will be taking the 98-367 MTA Security Fundamentals Exam, but I have less students, so that makes sense. 

It isn’t even 12:30 yet and I wish I could just leave. Not because I don’t like it here. I actually really enjoy my job. 

But now, I love my life even more :)