Skinny

Today is the last day of final exams. Janie came to school with me today. We dropped off gifts for her teachers and then we came on to school. I have no makeup exams for tomorrow (yay!!) so I'm not sure exactly what we will do tomorrow. Clean my classroom possibly...

When I was in the hallway walking back from my daddy's classroom one of the other teachers here stopped me and called me skinny.

Skinny.

Me.

I hardly think so...

But I will admit this...

That was probably one of the most wonderful things I have ever heard someone say about me.

:)

Snack foods for cravings with minimal calories...

satisfy your sweet tooth:

1. 1/2 medium apple, baked, topped with 1 tbsp low fat yogurt sprinkled with cinnamon (45 calories).

2. 1/2 small banana, frozen (45 calories)

3. 4 oz. unsweetened applesauce sprinkled with cinnamon (49 calories)

4. 1 miniature box of raisins (45 calories)

5. 2 sugar-free ice pops (30 calories)

6. 1 sugar-free fudge ice pop (35 calories)

7. 12 cherries (48 calories)

8. 1 individual serving sugar-free gelatin with 3 tbsp. light whipped topping (40 calories)

9. 1/2 cup strawberries with 2 1/2 tbsp nonfat yogurt (47 calories)

10. 14 seedless red grapes, frozen (48 calories)

 

indulge a salt craving:

11. 1 1/2 cups salted air-popped popcorn (46 calories)

12. 1/4 cup shelled edamame (soybeans) with sea salt (37 calories)

13. 8 oz. miso soup (36 calories)

14. 1 pretzel rod (37 calories)

15. 1/4 small bag of Glenny’s lightly salted soy crisps (35 calories)

16. 1 medium sliced cucumber mixed with 1/4 cup sliced onion, 1/2 cup chopped celery, and 4 tbsp vinegar and salt to taste (45 calories)

17. 6 oz V8 juice (39 calories)

18. 1 kosher dill pickle (10 calories)

 

crunch and munch:

19. 1/2 cup jicama with 4 oz salsa (49.5 calories)

20. 1 1/2 cups sugar snap peas (40 calories)

21. small celery stalk smeared with 1/2 tbsp natural peanut butter (49 calories)

22. 1/2 small apple with 1 tsp soy butter (46 calories)

23. 1 brown rice cake with 1 tbsp sugar-free jam (44 calories)

 

smooth and creamy:

24. 1 Laughing Cow Light Garlic & Herb wedge spread on cucumber slices (35 calories)

25. 1 tsp almond butter (34 calories)

26. 1/2 cup fat-free Greek yogurt with 1 tsp sugar-free strawberry jam (43 calories)

27. 1 oz avocado (about 1/8 of an avocado) squirted with lime (45 calories)

28. 8 grape tomatoes dipped in 1 tbsp light cream cheese (46 calories)

 

cheesy whizzes:

29. 6 pieces of endive filled with 1/2 oz reduced-fat feta cheese (49 calories)

30. 1 slice fat-free American cheese (30 calories)

31. 1 large tomato, sliced, topped with 1 tbsp Parmesan, broiled (44 calories)

32. 1 oz fat-free cottage cheese on1 slice caraway Finn Crisp Crispbread (38 calories)

33. 1 oz fat-free mozzarella dipped in 1 tsp marinara sauce (46 calories)

 

power up on protein:

34. turkey rolls: 2 slices white meat turkey rolled in 2 lettuce leaves (46 calories)

35. 1 oz smoked salmon (about 1 slice) on 2 Wheat Thins crackers (48 calories)

36. 1 tofu dog with 1 tbsp sauerkraut (48 calories)

37. 1/2 cup plain fat-free yogurt sprinkled with 1 tsp sunflower seeds (49.6 calories)

38. 1.3 oz water-packed tuna with 1 tsp Dijon mustard (48 calories)

39. 2 large hard-cooked egg whites with 1 cup sliced cucumber (48 calories)

40. 1 slice Wasa Fibre Crispbread with 2 tsp hummus (45 calories)

41. 1 medium water-packed sardine with slice of red onion (35 calories)

 

solid standbys:

42. 1/2 cup melon with 2 tbsp 1% cottage cheese (47 calories)

43. 1/2 small grapefruit (32 calories)

44. 1/3 cup blueberries with 1 tbsp light sour cream (47 calories)

45. 1/2 cup carrots with 1 tbsp light ranch dressing (45 calories)

 

thirst quenchers:

46. 1/2 cup nonfat milk with 1 tbsp Walden Farms calorie-free chocolate syrup (40 calories)

47. 1 packet of sugar-free hot chocolate made with 1/4 cup skim milk and 3/4 cup hot water (47 calories)

48. 3/4 cup almond milk (45 calories)

49. 3/4 cup seltzer with 1/4 cup cranberry juice and a lime wedge (33 calories)

50. homemade iced green tea (with artificial sweetener if desired) (0 calories)

Couldn't have said it better myself

from a dear friend of mine who has been through much of what I have been through in the past few months...

"Well it has taken me sometime to be open about a decision that I have made not just for my wonderful husband, who has been my rock and my shelter but for my children who make me wanna be better every day. I have received a lot of private messages asking me how have I lost my weight? And this has been a very private matter between my family & close friends , but as I sit here watching "My 600lb Life" I can't help but see myself on this show. No I never reached that big in weight but close enough to where I was in Congestive Heart Failure , and I see myself in everyone one of these people who are fighting to get their life back.. I have struggled with My weight my entire life, yo yo diets, and trying to hide away a lot of pain, and as I got older my emotional pain got worse. So what does almost every heavy set woman do, she hides it and hides it well, usually behind a great smile and BIG personality. Trying to be the life of the party and the most outspoken, just to hide the physical & mental abuse, not just from family ,but so called friends and even strangers. So in some ways I've become a master manipulator of my own self.. And not until I started this journey of finding myself my true self , did I realize that. So, I had some tough decisions to make , well at least at the time I thought they were tough decisions, and now that I've made the decision to FORGIVE, I look back and tell myself it wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. It was one of the best gifts I could give myself to FORGIVE those who have done me wrong but also to FORGIVE myself for whom I've done wrong. So my next decision was to have the Gastric Bypass surgery and that is the 2nd best decision I've made for myself.. There is no looking back, it is onward and upward for me and my family. I have had some of my, who I thought were my friends, that I shared this with leave me some pretty hurtful messages, telling me it was a coward way out to face my demons head on..Well my decision was not made for anyone else other than myself and my family .. I am sharing my story because I want to be honest with you all when you ask me how did I do it, I'm not ashamed. I just had to come to terms before telling everyone something so personal. So please understand why I hesitated.. Thank you and I love you all."

~ Kimberly Holley

small victories

I am wearing a pair of jeans today that I haven't worn since I was probably 3 months pregnant with Si.

Small victories make me SO happy lately :)

I honestly feel like food has become my enemy.  The less I eat, the better I feel.

My wedding ring is too big for my left ring finger. Since I don't have my wedding ring and engagement rings soldered together, I just moved my wedding band to my right middle finger. My engagement ring still fits fine (it must be smaller) so it's still on the appropriate finger.

Oh... We have less than 3 weeks until PROM.

back to work tomorrow

I'm going back to work tomorrow. I'm kinda looking forward to it, but it sure has been nice being off :) tomorrow is Friday so this will ease me back into the routine better than starting back on Monday and having to work the entire week. Plus that's one less sick leave day I have to use.

I don't feel like I have lost any weight. I was weighed on Tuesday when I went to see Dr Hussain and their scale said I weighed the exact same amount that I did the day before surgery. I sure hope that scale is wrong...

I think Jason is working Saturday so I'm not sure what Janie, Si and I will do that day. One of Si's daycare friends has a birthday party that morning at 11, so I know we'll go to that.

I have a check up with Dr Ringold next Wednesday at 8:30 that morning. My mom wants to go with me. She said it was because Jason wouldn't have to take off from work to go with me.

Yeah... not sure how I feel about that...

Phenergen

Phenergen is a God send.

This nausea sucks.

inflamed

Just got discharged from Mobile Infirmary for the second time in less than a week. I was in horrible pain all night long. It felt like my kidney wad about to explode.

After a CT scan of my abdomen, they found that my lymph nodes in my belly are inflamed. Probably from surgery.

So I am leaving the ER with a prescription for Percocet, Motrin, and Phenergen.

I hope I don't have to come back to this place for a very long time...

pain meds

I'm feeling better. A lot of this emotional craziness is from all the pain I'm in from surgery. I haven't wanted to take my pain medication because I know when it's gone, it's gone. But I shouldn't let myself get to hurting so bad that I feel like I did earlier.

Tomorrow I plan on going to work. Not to teach, because it is an in-service day, but to get assignments ready for my students while I am out this week. Janie will go with me and I think Jason plans on taking Si to Mrs. Donna. So we will get to have a mommy-daughter day :) maybe we can go get pedicures together :)

Tuesday I have a doctor's appointment with Dr Hussain in the morning. Ms Pat will also be here that day so I hope to get some stuff done around town while she is here. I'm not sure why but I feel uncomfortable being here when she's here. When I see Dr Hussain I am going to ask him to refill my pain medication prescription. I hope he will...

Si is being stubborn and doesn't want to take a nap. I really want to take one.. lol

I love nap time :)

alone

Sometimes I feel so absolutely alone. When Janie is gone with Chris, and Jason and I aren't seeing eye-to-eye it feels like there is no one else in the whole world that cares.

Alone.

Hopeless.

Empty.

over did it

Today has been hard. My stomach hurts like I have a bad stomach virus. The cramping is crazy weird. I'm not having any problems with food or activity, but I wonder if the reason I feel like I was run over by 10 Mack trucks is because I did too much yesterday.

I'm the momma. I have to do too much. Every day of my life. If I don't do it, it doesn't get done.

But now... It's time for a nap...

home sweet home

Home sweet home :)

No matter where I go or what reason I went, it always feels wonderful to be back in my own bed.
Janie is going to spend the night with Jorja tomorrow night and then Saturday morning they are doing a 5K (walking not running lol). Maybe one day I can do one with them :)

I think we left the hospital around 3 o'clock this afternoon. The nurse finally got my prescriptions for meds and that's what took so long. I'm on a different blood pressure medication because I can't take any meds that have diuretic effects. I wonder how much weight I have lost this week...

This surgery has definitely been harder than I thought it would be. I didn't anticipate the pain being so severe. But it's getting better. The main thing that hurts is the gas. Some of it is the gas they used when doing the actual procedure and the rest is normal gas.

Lol normal gas? You know what I mean ;)

I'm laying here with Jason while he watches the Sugar Bowl. Looks like Alabama might lose this one... the score is Ohio 42 to Alabama's 28. And there's less than 3 minutes left in the game...
Hitler and her minion went to the game (along with their husbands, of course). I'd hate to be with them right about now lol

I shouldn't be so mean...

Oh wait... that's how they treat me... so yes, I SHOULD be mean.

It's just a dang football game. And they act like it's the most important thing in the world.

Hmmmm... well Alabama scored. So it's 42-35 with less than 2 minutes left in the game. Maybe they'll be able to pull this one off... you never know...

I honestly don't care lol

War Eagle :)

lime jello and popsicles

Hopefully tomorrow I get discharged. I had another upper GI done this morning and they told me it looked great :)

Today I ate almost a full cup of lime jello for lunch. For supper I had two sugar free popsicles. The popsicles were definitely better than the yogurt lol

The CNA wanted me to walk the halls so I did for about 15 minutes. And my nurse (not the mean nurse from last night -thank goodness!) Gave me phenergen to help me sleep and dilaudid for pain.

I sure have missed my sweet baby Si...

Janie and Jason went to go watch a movie and then they're going to watch the fireworks in downtown Mobile :)

moan and groan

I just went walking around the halls of the hospital. I passed by a few rooms and I think this must be the bariatric wing of the hospital. I even kinda recognized one guy from the class we had to take.
Night Nurse Lady has been a completely different person than she was earlier.

I hate to be a complainer. I dispise having to hear someone complain over and over again, especially about the same thing. It's monotonous and idiotic. I also hate nagging. That's why I don't nag Jason. I'll ask once; that's it. If it isn't done after that, either it won't be done or I will do it myself. I had to do a lot for myself when I was married to Chris because he was gone off working construction so much. I just got used to it.

But this time it really paid off to complain and moan and groan about things.

Or maybe it was the subtle hint that I was going to complain to her boss...

Yep. That was probably it ;)

too little too late

I am about to fire my nurse.

She is uncaring and rude. When I ask her for pain medication she huffs at me. She's been late bringing it to me every time. Once I had to wait over 2 hours.

I have a bad feeling that if u was a different race she wouldn't be treating me like this.

And what is amazing is that when she could tell that I was mad she immediately did a 180 and started acting like she cared and even apologizing.

Too little, too late.

Life changing

Last friday I got a life changing phone call. 

I was approved by my health insurance company for bariatric surgery.

Now... I have been through this process before. I was approved over 10 years ago and backed out at the last possible minute because I basically freaked out. There were too many people there and they were crying and staring at me... it was overwhelming.

This time though, I am determined not to back out.